The Beginning...

I am on a journey here... and I am writing this blog simply as a creative outlet. I need to do something positive with all the crazy stirrings withing my soul. So this is it folks. The things I write here may not always be pretty. Beginning the journey of my education to become a midwife did things inside me that I never expected. But I now know they are essential in completing the person that I was meant to be. I have been frustrated with loved ones in my life when they sort of put themselves "on hold", now I know why I find that frustrating. It is because that is what I have done to myself! I have not wanted to feel... learn... change... think. Why? Because like every other human being on the planet, all those types of things can involve pain... confrontation... work! So here I will write my musings... the things that stir my passions... the things that break my heart... and all the things that bring healing to my soul.

It may seem raw. I can be. It may come across as incredibly simple, naive and uneducated. I am. It may be contain the wisdom that comes with raising 7 children, staying married to the same man for 29 years, catching grandbabies in my hands, taking in any lost waif who needs me, befriending the friendless, forgiving old friends for decisions I couldn't or wouldn't understand, but most of all learning to forgive myself for the selfish introspective way I chose to live the last 6 years of my life.

All I can say is I will write without fear of judgment or the old desperate need for the understanding and acceptance from all I know. If I write the blog like that, I might as well not write it at all. So raw, simple, naive, uneducated, and wise... here I am. I am ever changing, ever in the state of metamorphosis. Struggling to free myself from this cocoon that has shaped me, changed me, created me. Now I must simply free myself to be a new person. No more stagnate living.
All my love,
Margie