Slept all night! Didn't get up until 7:00 a.m. Wonderful to sit at my kitchen table and have breakfast with my family... sit in my own home church and worship with my brothers and sisters... and later to sit around the table and spend time with my older kids and grandkids. This evening I will go and "simply be" with my sister for the evening. I still haven't really "caught up" to myself yet so I am sure I have a lot of adjusting to do. Little things produce unbidden prickling of my eyes, tightening of my throat or outright R.C.M.'s (random crying moments) before I know they are coming: The way my bed felt when I laid down, the smell of my children, the way my kitchen chairs feel so "comfortable" and so "right" under me, being surrounded by my own pretty things and my own familiar places, driving my car, warm water out of the faucet, a warm bath, putting on my church clothes, seeing my friends faces at church filled with true joy at seeing me again, worship songs drifting in from the living room as I was waking up this morning blending with the smell of coffee and my husband frying bacon, feeling my husband curl into my back and breathe in my scent as I slept, laughing with my kids over you tube videos.... all these plus myriad other things are blessing me so deeply today. I had a good discussion with Deborah Gustafson while at Shiphrah about learning to not feel guilty for who and what we are, and for what is normal to us. This was in reference to wanting to help so many others who are in such dire straits. That was a good conversation to have and I still feel the weight of her wisdom blessing me as I make the adjustment to being back home. Still what it has produced in me is thankfulness. I am so grateful for this life of mine. I am so grateful for the clothes in my closet, my pictures on the wall, the warm water that comes instantly out of the faucet, the food in the pantry and refrigerator, and the fact that I am dearly, dearly loved back here in my home place. It is enough as I rest, recuperate and readjust. I am satisfied.