Feb 2, 2013
Saw this quote today and it made my heart beat a bit steadier, and the tensions (and the self recriminations that WILL creep in despite my best attempts to keep them at bay...) that are inside my body at this moment ease a bit in understanding... acceptance...

"I know vulnerability is kind of the core of shame, fear, and our struggle for worthiness, but it also appears to be the birthplace of joy, creativity, belonging, and love... To let ourselves be seen, deeply seen, vulnerably seen. To love with our whole hearts, even though there's no guarantee. To practice gratitude and joy in those moments of terror, to be this vulnerable means that we're alive." -Brene Brown

Help me Oh Lord as I do this thing called "Putting one foot in front of the other", forgive me for the deep impatience and irritability that my level of exhaustion has produced, but at the same time let that occurrence also work in me it's perfect work.....

Feb 3, 2013
Jewel, Jennifer everyone else who keeps encouraging me along the lines of a book or a blog, that actually scares the hell out of me,,, I write the same way I sing, the same way I dance, the same way I bang away at the piano... it is really only for me and a way of expressing creativity and releasing tensions... I am afraid of what it will become if it is suddenly another "responsibility", but my heart is listening and I am considering how to "save" it all. Currently I am creating it as a document and am working on getting my blog up and running again. If you want to read a few of my previous writings here is my blog url: http://margiethemakingofamidwife.blogspot.com/

Hopefully today I will get the posts from the 31 days copied and pasted over there for posterity's sake... haha! I guess I understand, when I first started on this journey 16 years ago there were very few writings of midwives to be found... and there still very few relatively speaking.