Fingerprints All Over My Heart:
Day 52.
In the home stretch and feeling mixed emotions. I am missing my family hugely at this point, but I know that I will miss these lovely days, these lovely people, Jeri and family, my fantastic midwives and my dear sister interns so very much. I have much to accomplish in the next few days and feel the weight of that laying heavy on my shoulders. I do not know how to reconcile all the mixed up feelings swirling around inside of me and the inner storm stole away much of my sleep last night This is made more difficult by an actual storm of rain that began last night and continues still and a cold that has been plaguing me for the last two days. I am hoping today will be the worst of it. My chest and head feel heavy and sluggish. It has been raining since last night and it is still falling relentlessly. I keep expecting that sweet cool dessert air that comes with Arizona rains but the air is close and humid and I feel a bit suffocated. No patients today with the rains, but the change in the barometer may bring some labors. I have much paperwork to finish tonight but for now I think I will take care of myself with a short nap. I know that so much of what I am processing needs to be written down, but for now I will rest. More later.